I was thinking the other day of a list. The world is so huge! And I have been to only a small portion of it! There are wonders that I have seen on photos and videos…that have mesmerized everybody within their sight. But a secondary mesmerization cannot quench my curiosity. I have to be there! Walk the great wall of China, Stand before the taj mahal, lie on my back and admire the northern lights, explore the underwater sights, touch the walls of the pyramids, whisper a prayer into the walls of Jerusalem…Connect with history on a personal level. I want to be there!
There is a lot of intelligence that is yet to be discovered, yet what I know of the already discovered is but a drop! There are millions of books that will tickle my fancy, help me discover a passion I never knew, make me think like Einstein did, and perhaps develop a new admiration for My God! I have a deep hole that craves knowledge…a thirst to know more, read more, and add my contribution to the world of intellects, albeit in a small way. I want to be unlimited!
There is a depth by which I want to know God. Like David, I want to seek him till he calls me, “A woman after my own heart.” I hear about his compassion, providence, expansive, immeasurable nature…but I want to experience it firsthand. To be so intimate that I can feel Him stirring in my soul. To be so connected that it goes beyond asking…to just loving Him for who he is. I want to grow beyond my limits!
There is a side of human beings that has always fascinated me, though most shield themselves from being discovered. It’s beyond the self-centered, uncaring, inhuman side they like to show. I have realized that everyone has a story. Of how they rose from the gallows, almost everybody has a message for my life, somehow. I want to expand my arms and reach out to older, younger, crazier, calmer, unapproachable, those I have thought to be outside my ‘circle’…who knows? They may hold the key to some of my doors! I want to reach out!
There is a side to me I am so sure I am unaware of! I mean, I have passions: love for music, art, writing, laughs and the likes. But most of my passions get stuck in my head, in my imaginations and desires. Like I adore the “tango”! Yet I never make a move to learn..In my mind, I see myself a tango phenomenon, from behind my desk. I want to burst my mental boundaries, try something new every day, take risks, go where my heart leads, do what I think I shouldn’t, let loose, Just DO IT! In this life, Now, Here! I want to fly!
Then there are limitations to these dreams of mine. I am gonna write them ALL down. The reasons, the what-ifs, the hmmmm, maybe-nots….all of them. Then am gonna read through that list again, and tear it up, burn it, and GO FOR IT! The good Lord has blessed me with this one life! Every passing day, my time is a day less. Every passing day, He has provided enough for my journey: Health, friends, means, and miracles. I want to just DO IT!!