Behind The Exterior

A smile....
A dance...
A gentle swing in my hips..
A confident stride..
A reassuring calmness that always meets you when you are around me...and the constant nod to your words when i listen to ur lips' flow...

The girl you know..

But inside...battles are mounting..my heart is pounding..my ears are ringing..
as am getting tossed from one wall's end to the wired fence n back..yet i dare not scream.

All this confusion that swells up busting upon my beliefs..staining my nature..my heritage..shaking the very ground i've built my foundations upon..

my heart has grown weary..my bossom squashed from your heavy demands...my passions shadowed by your towerin ego...my soft voice silenced by your boomin echos..
pushing me to my corner..where i sit..my back arched...my face hidden..on this fortress i built high up in the sky, that no longer seems safe...for the ants are ferouciously gnawing at its feet...

Can these clipped wings fly?
Can this caged bird sing?

I must seek salvation...broken or burdened. Dear Lord..i must!..i knw where my soul belongs...and all along...He was begging me to let go and free- fall from my high grounds..and trust tht i will land on my soul's redemption.